Before the season started, St. Louis had Matt Adams in left field. Then Jose Martinez. The behavior from my mother was a result of a rx drug addiction that came on suddenly in my early teen years. Went from years of having a normal, hard working, caring mother, to an unpredictable, unreasonable, hurtful, almost unforgivable, ruthless at a time in my life I needed stability the most. Like having a firestorm in an ice castle, I was not prepared..